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For some reason, my apartment STINKS. I mean really stinks. It smells like a dumpster in here. I find it very alarming. I can't find the source of the stench either. The trash and recycling are clean the kitchen sink only has two rinsed dishes in it. I really don't want anyone to come over until I find out what's causing the smell. It almost smells like dead animal which is completely revolting. I hope someone didn't die in my building. *shudder*

I briefly had plans to meet with a friend tonight but that bombed out. Too bad. Later this week though. Hopefully. Maybe.

In addition to my apartment stinking, I stink too. I just did another hour long spinning class. I've been eating a lot of non-nutritious food in large quantities lately. I've got to be careful. I just lost about 10 pounds in the last two months and I'd be so crabby to gain it back.

I won't see NSF until tomorrow night. That's two whole nights apart. I think by tomorrow afternoon I'm going to be antsy and cranky, which is kind of a good feeling. A sort of bouncy, hyper-excited to see my new girlfriend feeling.
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Can I tell you what a joy my life is right now? I wake up in the morning with a smile on my face. (okay maybe it's not a full smile until I've had my coffee) Whether I'm alone or not. I know part of it is have this NSF in my life, but even before I met NSF I felt like my life was going in the right direction. Sunday will be four weeks since our first date. Uh-mazing. I don't know what else to say about it. She's amazing. It's all still so very much in it's infancy, but I feel a sense that this is not a short-term thing. Only time will tell.

I'm enjoying my new apartment as well. I have been here for about a month and a half and it feels more like home. I think the house I grew-up in will always be my true "home", but as I get older (and yes this is corny) I find that home really is in your heart.

Next goals:

1. Take better care of my friend at work. This is a person who needs my friendship (and I feel like I need hers, I certainly enjoy hers) Right before I met NSF we were starting to develop a non-work bond. She is depressed off and on and very alone. I feel like I should nurture our friendship more. I have the strength to do it now, whereas before I moved I didn't have it so much.

2. Continue to manifest that perfect job.
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I do not recommend asian pear bubble tea. Blech. Worst flavor ever. It is overly sweet and peary. Asian pears are supposed to taste light and slightly tart. Not like some sort of sickly sweet syrup.

I woke up this morning thinking about triathlon. Actually it was my third thought. My first was that I'm cooking dinner for a friend tonight and I have to go get some additional food stuffs. Also, I need a new hair dryer after yesterday's explosion. My second thought was that my mother is sending me guilt vibes for not visiting for over two weeks and let me tell you, I'd rather have a wart than mother guilt.

So my third thought was triathlon. Have I hung up my wetsuit for life? I'm starting to miss it. I miss RACING. I miss having legs strong enough to open peanut butter jars with my thighs. But any serious triathlete, or athlete in general will tell you that having a a serious social life is hard, if not impossible, while training. I decided to take the year off from triathlon to focus on other things. Namely, my friends. Also, love. I tried to combine both and the results were disastrous (love and triathlon, not friends and love). I was at my peak level of training during my last relationship (we're talking 8 minute miles and 20% bodyfat, which for me is incredible) and both my training suffered and the relationship died (mostly for other reasons, but the training didn't help). I also wanted to spend more time with my sisters and my family and with nature. Hiking is high on my priorities. Also is seeing so many of those fabulous bands that are coming to town this summer. I missed laughing with my friends in 2006. There wasn't nearly enough it of. I feel like I've had more belly laughs this year because I simply have time for it. I don't know if I can go back to training 15 hours a week. I might have to be one of those "recreational" triathletes.


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