I said yes.

I told Aeon that I DO want to go to Japan this morning. I am terrified/excited/peeing my pants. I can't believe I'm going. Why is it I feel differently about this every day? Yesterday I was teary-eyed and scared about it and today I'm totally excited. I hope that's a normal response to things.

Now comes the task of paperwork, paperwork, paperwork. It's comforting to see my future laid out in front of me for once. And to be excited about it. For so long I've been wandering and wondering about what to do.

I will turn 30 while I'm in Japan. I will miss Christmas, Thanksgiving, my birthday, my niece starting high school, my little niece starting kindergarten, my family friends baby will learn to walk. Who will I be when I get back to the states?

Things seem to change so quickly all at once. In two months I've quit my job, got a new one, tomorrow I'm moving, and NOW I know I'm going to Japan. Next task: find smoochie buddy.

Things have changed with those around me as well. My sister started Acupuncture/Oriental Medicine school, one of my dearest friends moved to Montana for love.
Change is so scary but it just can't be fought.