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Dec. 26th, 2006 09:05 pmSomewhere along the way this fall, the days started blurring together. I guess that's what happens when you're an adult and there isn't anything out of the ordinary happening. Really, today isn't very distinguishable from last Tuesday or 6 Tuedays before that.
I wouldn't describe this time in my life as boring or useless, there just isn't a lot of emotion happening right now. I am SO OK with that. This is a good time to reflect. I hate using that word, because I feel like it's really overused these days, but it's what I'm doing. I'm thinking about the past year a great deal. I'm also thinking about where I was this time last year. I just can't believe how much I've done this year and how quickly it has swept by.
I feel like I'm living in my head a lot and plotting or something. I'm plotting what it is that I want to do next. I know it's a crossroads for me right now and I need to make a decision. I can't continue to work in soul-sucking jobs for the rest of my life. I'm pretty sure I'm going back to school (unfortunately I've missed the my chance to start Winter quarter) in the Spring. I have to get over the idea that I'm giving something up by going back to school. It's a huge commitment. Both financially and mentally. There won't be anymore 6-week long bike trips across Japan or two-week trips to Laos and Thailand. Not for awhile at least.
This time last year I lived in a giant old house with three roommates. I didn't really like them that much. One roommate was a severely depressed, super critical guy. The only other woman in the house was really insecure and used my dental floss. Then there was the one roommate I liked and I would have never guessed he would have been the one I liked. He was 24 and getting his masters in geology. It was only three months, but it was long enough to remind me that I'm done with roommate days. The biggest thing I remember about December of 2005, was the fact that I was getting ready to go to Japan. I was also working in Smith Tower with some really nice people.
I wouldn't describe this time in my life as boring or useless, there just isn't a lot of emotion happening right now. I am SO OK with that. This is a good time to reflect. I hate using that word, because I feel like it's really overused these days, but it's what I'm doing. I'm thinking about the past year a great deal. I'm also thinking about where I was this time last year. I just can't believe how much I've done this year and how quickly it has swept by.
I feel like I'm living in my head a lot and plotting or something. I'm plotting what it is that I want to do next. I know it's a crossroads for me right now and I need to make a decision. I can't continue to work in soul-sucking jobs for the rest of my life. I'm pretty sure I'm going back to school (unfortunately I've missed the my chance to start Winter quarter) in the Spring. I have to get over the idea that I'm giving something up by going back to school. It's a huge commitment. Both financially and mentally. There won't be anymore 6-week long bike trips across Japan or two-week trips to Laos and Thailand. Not for awhile at least.
This time last year I lived in a giant old house with three roommates. I didn't really like them that much. One roommate was a severely depressed, super critical guy. The only other woman in the house was really insecure and used my dental floss. Then there was the one roommate I liked and I would have never guessed he would have been the one I liked. He was 24 and getting his masters in geology. It was only three months, but it was long enough to remind me that I'm done with roommate days. The biggest thing I remember about December of 2005, was the fact that I was getting ready to go to Japan. I was also working in Smith Tower with some really nice people.
