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Today was one of those depressing cancer patient days. So many sick people today. It seemed like all of them were young too. As in, under 40. That's hardest to see. It's not so much the patients that upset me so much, it's whoever is with the patients that upsets me. They are the ones with the weight of the world on their shoulders, carrying piles of paperwork, wheeling the oxygen around, asking all the questions. Most of the patients look sort of dazed and bored and tired of the whole routine. Chemo has to be the worst of all. There's nothing like routinely going in to have poison injected into yourself only to know you'll be violently ill the next day.
Fortunately for me it's only once or twice a month I'm around the clinic very much. Maybe that actually makes it worse. That it's not part of my every day reality.
It's getting sunnier and sunnier here in Seattle. It seems like the past two weeks have been the same weather pattern. Cold in the morning but then 65 degrees in the afternoon with a breeze (not a very friendly one). I like this weather and I'm not REALLY complaining, but I think we need some rain to wash away some of the gunk that's built up.
I'm exhausted tonight and I'm not sure why. I didn't get up until 7:20 (I know, sooo lazy) today. Maybe it was all the running around in the clinic. Or maybe biking to work is more work than I realize.