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UGH.

For some reason, my apartment STINKS. I mean really stinks. It smells like a dumpster in here. I find it very alarming. I can't find the source of the stench either. The trash and recycling are clean the kitchen sink only has two rinsed dishes in it. I really don't want anyone to come over until I find out what's causing the smell. It almost smells like dead animal which is completely revolting. I hope someone didn't die in my building. *shudder*

I briefly had plans to meet with a friend tonight but that bombed out. Too bad. Later this week though. Hopefully. Maybe.

In addition to my apartment stinking, I stink too. I just did another hour long spinning class. I've been eating a lot of non-nutritious food in large quantities lately. I've got to be careful. I just lost about 10 pounds in the last two months and I'd be so crabby to gain it back.

I won't see NSF until tomorrow night. That's two whole nights apart. I think by tomorrow afternoon I'm going to be antsy and cranky, which is kind of a good feeling. A sort of bouncy, hyper-excited to see my new girlfriend feeling.
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Can I tell you what a joy my life is right now? I wake up in the morning with a smile on my face. (okay maybe it's not a full smile until I've had my coffee) Whether I'm alone or not. I know part of it is have this NSF in my life, but even before I met NSF I felt like my life was going in the right direction. Sunday will be four weeks since our first date. Uh-mazing. I don't know what else to say about it. She's amazing. It's all still so very much in it's infancy, but I feel a sense that this is not a short-term thing. Only time will tell.

I'm enjoying my new apartment as well. I have been here for about a month and a half and it feels more like home. I think the house I grew-up in will always be my true "home", but as I get older (and yes this is corny) I find that home really is in your heart.

Next goals:

1. Take better care of my friend at work. This is a person who needs my friendship (and I feel like I need hers, I certainly enjoy hers) Right before I met NSF we were starting to develop a non-work bond. She is depressed off and on and very alone. I feel like I should nurture our friendship more. I have the strength to do it now, whereas before I moved I didn't have it so much.

2. Continue to manifest that perfect job.
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I won a small war at work today. I won't go into specifics, as it's not wise to discuss work too much on the interwebs; but let't just say it was a long war and I came out on top. With respect, which is hard to do.

Suddenly, my life is very busy. This is good because for awhile there it wasn't, and I kind of like to ride the edge of almost too busy. I feel like all of these changes all at once would have been harder for me at a different time in life, but right now I seem to be able to handle it. I'm just trying to tackle one thing at a time. I feel like moving was the hardest thing of all. There's nothing like moving to really shake your world up. I'm the routine queen and when it changes it's hard for me to adjust. I feel like this week my apartment is finally "home". I feel settled here. I'm getting used to biking or walking to work. I'm comfortable with the parking game and I've figured out how to find the good street spots when I move my car. Right now I'm averaging driving someplace once a week.

I'm thinking about dumping the gym. It's a relationship that has staled. It's just gotten really boring. It's so sunny and nice out and I'd so much prefer to save that energy to be outside. All of the walking and biking I've been doing has caused me to drop weight quickly too which makes the gym seem less urgent. I also really miss swimming. There's a masters team up here on the hill that I'm considering. It's 2 or 3 nights a week in the evening. On top of all that I've become more of a late night person (as in going to be at 11, rather than 9...) and getting up at 5:30 for the gym is not sounding so favorable.

So I have a second date with my new friend. I was kind of suspecting that would happen. The chemistry is certainly there. I feel shy saying too much about it. I'm also still in that "vulnerable" stage where it would be too easy to swoon and too easy to shoo it all away. Fortunately, or unfortunately, I don't get to do either. I get to wait and see, and find out how it goes.

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